The TAV Letter

Dear Travis,

My love, forgive me for all the tears I shed since you’ve moved on. I never once thought to prepare a farewell letter this soon to send off with you. I hope your travel from this life to the next has been safe & smooth. It’s okay to keep moving on, you’ve done all that you needed for us back here.

I never let a day go by where you didn’t know I loved you, but I just wish I had one more chance to let you know how much that love meant to me. I had hoped for one more smile, one more embrace, just one more something… because sometimes my words don’t come together.

For every encouraging word spoken and unspoken, I thank you. For the times you held my hand tight & believed in me for me. For loving me when I was relearning how to love myself the right way. For being out in front when I was hiding… Only because you were is it that I am.

For being so much more than the title of friend can capture in capsules. Or showing me what I was too blind to see growing on the inside of me, I thank you. For lighting me up, supernova. Teaching me how to shine with a stardust glow when I didn’t want to be noticed, I am forever indebted.

Nothing I could say or do can ever repay all that I owe you, without question. My heart will never let you go; somehow I still feel you. Even with all the pain that I feel from the sound of my heart beating in my ears because you are no longer, with me, or here…

Just know the God in you has recognized & activated the God in me, and when deep calls to deep divinity springs forth. Thank you for helping me BE. What is left of you on earth is soon to be written in history, time holds no restraint on the future that will be built because God gave breath to a wonder that just so happened to be you… <3

Sincerely,
Shauny aka Shaun Dawn